All mixed up What a strange and exciting week it�s been. Unfortunately it took a really sour turn, but hopefully will end all lovely. The job: Well, I started this week. I am so not used to getting up at a normal hour. My management skills are really rusty too; it�s not so much that it�s difficult� things are just taking longer than they should. Hopefully I�ll be able to execute faster in the near future. The office: It�s pretty cool. It�s a nice environment with a cool dog, lots of camouflage net, and a sweet smoking patio. The boys I�m working with seem great and I�m really excited about the damage we can do together. I still have to get used to people calling each other by their gaming nicks (SO weird), as well as the Numerous meetings. The town: The apartment complex I�m probably moving into is ridiculous. It has four pools, six hot tubs, two gyms, two basketball courts, two tennis courts, and lots of clubhouses. My unit has beautiful appliances and my room has its own balcony. Everything is so clean and new down there. It�s quite a change from New York and even San Francisco. I�m going to love the weather, but I�m going to miss rustic things like Farley�s--my favorite coffee shop in the world. Speaking of which�. The cute girl: I was at Farley�s yesterday during the early evening. Naturally I went to see the goofy-coffee-house-girl-of-my-dreams. She wore her hair down, which is the first time I�ve seen her do so. She was also wearing a green jacket, which plays off nicely with her green eyes. She was just too adorable and way sexy. Anyway, I was sitting outside with Kate, Rannie, Justin, and the Kid when she came out to sit next to me. We had a pretty cool conversation and she got a little playful. In fact, I totally lit up when she got all touchy feely with me. Hopefully it wasn�t so obvious externally, but inside, fireworks were going off. Kate said she could totally see it but that I hid it well enough. She�s probably lying. I don�t care. I was so high after chatting with my girl. THE girl: Much later that evening I bumped into the girl I love. We actually spoke on the phone earlier in the week for some work stuff. It�s still really difficult for me. She knows I�m leaving and wants to talk or get together or something before I leave. And there are few things in the world I would rather do than be with her�but you know, I�m not sure it�s the best thing. I still have incredible feelings for her and as much as I miss her and as much as I want to spend time with her, it�ll probably prolong the hurt that I feel. I really don�t know what I�m going to do�then again with her, I never did. My heart aches so much after seeing her. Oh well, at least I just feel lugubrious, as opposed to the utter devastation I felt when she first broke my heart. The trip: I�m off to the desert to see some game. After that I�m going to LA to see my second-favorite band in the world and my little girl. Hopefully the combination of the two can help me forget about the (really) rough spot of the week.